Life as a Final Year Student

Hello December,

It's always the month that I look forward to because there has been two birthday in my family my dad's and my brother's birthday.  It's also because it is the last month of the year. I hope it will also be the best month for me to end this year.

As I told you before, I am in my last year as a student at the National University of Malaysia (UKM), majoring in English. Well, to be truth, I am still in dilemma and denial that I have to do a thesis. It's not hard but when it comes to an idea of what topic you gonna do, you will be lost. Trust me! I have a lot of presentations and assignments that need to be done this month but too lazy to do that T.T. The most important thing is I have to present the three chapters of my FYP this coming 16th of December and I have not prepared anything yet. Screwed me up big time baby!!!!!!!!

Dear Allah, help and guide me through thick and thin. I want to make them proud and myself too. I want to graduate on time as well.

Tick Tock Tick Tock the time is running out..... 

source: Google Image

#1 Lady

I always told myself that I am a strong woman and nobody could hurt me. I care less about people I don't really know and I care much about people that I love. I always believe in myself. whenever I fall, I will get up again with the help of myself. If I wanted something in my life, I would go to get it, even if it's hard... I will get it. But, only one thing that I never chased. LOVE, I, never chased men if I did not get him. If I like and love that man, but he doesn't like me and return my feelings towards him.. I'll be okay. I may be sad but I will move on after that. If he is not meant for me, then why should I go for him? Let Him, Allah SWT decide who is the best for me. I know, there will be a good man who is worthy for me to wait. Who is good to my family, Mama Abah and me. I don't need a perfect man who is being chased by all women.. what I need is only a man who can tolerate my nonsense, who can accompany me in reading books in our small library, and that kind of man who is willing to accept all my flaws. The most important is, he must guide me straight to Jannah because that is my aim to find a husband. I wanted to be a good Muslimah guided by my spouse one fine day. In sha Allah.

Hi, my name is Aalia Shahira, Am I yours?

The Eye

It’s all over, I forgot it all
Finally, I’ve erased you
It was so long, it was so hard
But I’m saying goodbye to this break-up

It has all ended, it has all stopped
Finally, light is coming down
The stormy rain and the wind
Has finally stopped but

Your memories
Wrap around me again
Even when I take one step
I get drenched with you
The place I left you
The place I ran away from
It’s the center of my memories of you
I finally realize

After a break up that hasn’t ended
I’m saying goodbye to this break-up
The fate that has remained with me
I try to escape from you
I try to run far away
But I’m swept up by you again

After a break up that hasn’t ended
I’m saying goodbye to this break-up
These feelings that I still have
I can’t forget you, I can’t erase you
With eyes filled with sin
I’m trapped in your eyes
Trapped

Favorite lady of myself
Picture credit to Google Image

You were so beautiful
We were so happy
In your memories
In the light of the memories
I think I could live

But I don’t think I can do this again
I don’t think I can pierce through you and leave
In your photo
I’m reflected in those eyes
I still can’t do anything
So I’m crying

Your eyes, your face
They sweep me up again
You fall as rain that are like prison bars
Closing up my heart