Heart matters

Currently I dont have any diary so yeah I will write it here.

So it is like this. I like this man..I know him few years ago until now. Our relationship is hard to describe because Idk whether we a re friend or not so I put it as 'complicated'.
I tell you, I like him (a lot) but I never told him. I just give him some hints and I wish he could noticed it. But, nooo he act like he doesnt know my feeling towards him. I'm so disappointed with him T.T . Man, how can I say I really love you. I am a woman.. I have my pride and gengsi to take care off. How can I confess my feeling at you then you rejected it.. Idk where will I put my face if that will happen. Can't you realised it even for once???

Through the years we had known each other, we never talk face to face. We just meet at somewhere..you sat there, I sat there..distance make us apart. Even in the same place, I can only see your face and your smile to your friends. Not to me. Tsk! We only upgraded our relationship when we smiles to each other but that was a few month ago. Can't you believe guys we know almost 3years but what he and I had done with our complicated relationship..only SMILE. Smile guys..not talking to each other. How I wish I could talk to him but I think if it happens I wouldnt dare to speak to him because I am so shyyy!!! (U_U)'' I may be brave with men but when it comes to someone I like, I eventually turn so malu-malu kucing like it so not me. Bhaha-

Dear you, I dont have much expectation about our relationship. Maybe at least tell me do you have the same feeling towards me or not. I'm not that kind of girl who had experience in relationship because I never had one in my life. I'm only have mama abah and my siblings to talk about guy but never do relationship with man. I wish you are the first and last man that I fall in love with. I told you, I dont like couple before married. I want to be love by someone who is halal for me so that I can give him all my love through action without hesitation. Please tell me you want me (even we are not coupling..I will be your friend till we get married) . I save my heart for the best man. May you are the one He send to me! InshaAllah

I end my post with a light heart because I already confess it eventhough through my blog. I hope you read it - xoxo

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